Whew ~ I'm glad that's over!

Friday night: Pizza and Ice skating.  Check
Saturday:     Christmas shopping at Tanger.  Check
Sat. Eve:      Christmas shopping in Macon, Dinner with mama.  Check
Sund.           Take choir presents to Jackson Pres. @ 9 am, go to St. Joseph for Memorial Mass for Marie,
                    Cantata final practice 2-3, Cantata performance @ 3 pm.  Check.

All done and crossed off my list.   Now I just have to wrap presents and wait for Christmas!  I think Rivers is going to spend Christmas with me!  Yippee!!!!! 

Woohooo 7 lbs.!!!! 7 more to go before the end of this year!!!

I weighed in today.  I was planning to do it on Sunday, but with the Joy Gift Dinner and play practice I didn't have time.  Plus, I had to make something for dinner.   I went to the gym with Rivers last night, but I kinda hurried through my workout and didn't take the time.  I went by myself tonight, and although I love Rivers and love going to the gym with him, I definitely get a better workout by myself.  He joined me at the gym tonight after I had been on the treadmill for an hour then I did the stairmaster for the first time.  After that, I weighed.  I really couldn't believe it as I was moving the weight to the left, and to the left some more.  I would love to lose 7 more before December is over.  I have to keep my eyes on the prize. 
I flubbed up this weekend with my office Christmas party.  I did have a couple of glasses of wine and then when Rivers and I got back to my house we laid in bed, talked and I had even more.  I had so much fun and I really don't regret it, but still, I can't do that again for a very long time.  I worked out extra hard tonight to make up for it! 
This week I have Session on Thursday (I'll take a Subway sandwich and water) and on Friday, Dede and I are taking the kids to Macon ice skating and to Mellow Mushroom.  I will eat maybe a Greek salad with dressing on the side and a sliver of pizza.  I'll have yogurt for breakfast and a salad for lunch on Friday.
Regardless of how much I have to do, I'm finding that planning my meals around and with my activities is really helping so I won't come home feeling starved and then pigging out.

Looking Forward Part II

I am looking forward to feeling really good on the inside and looking decent on the outside, rather than an overindulgent fat chick. Just since Sunday I feel a tremendous change in the way I feel. I have more energy and I'm definitely more upbeat since I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel and the train will stop to let the fat chick will get off. There was a time when being alone in the gym working out on a Friday night would have been unbearably depressing to me, but tonight I loved it. I didn't mind not being out drinking, or having dinner. In fact, being the only person there made me even more mindful of my goal.
Robbie sent me a message today apologizing for the FB quiz, and even though I figured he didn't post on purpose, his message was so sweet. Made me feel tons better. He just doesn't know how much that spurred me on to begin losing weight. So some things are meant to be and Robbie Smith was a blessing to me.

Looking Forward

Today was another stellar day food-wise. I had 2 boiled eggs, 3 crackers, grapefruit, 6 crackers with smoked gouda with venison jerky, 2 weetabix, walnuts pieces, small applesauce and soy milk. Although I got up too late to have a proper breakfast at the right time, I did pretty well, and considering I had such a long day.
I was so tempted to weigh myself tonight at the gym, but I'll wait until Sunday. Hope to have lost at least 2 lbs. We'll see. My office Christmas party is tomorrow night and I have to go shopping for something presentable to wear for that. Not looking forward to that at all, but gotta do it. Oh well, they will be my last fat clothes.
I read something today on The Pudge Budge that I loved and made me think, 'Ah, I remember that feeling." Taking good care of yourself, watching what you eat and working out, feels so good and sexy. And it's so true! I'm going to keep this in mind.

It's going to get harder, right?

The last few days have been relatively easy. I've eaten something for breakfast, lunch, and dinner with a couple of healthy snacks. I didn't go work out as planned tonight because Rivers came over to "fix" my wi-fi, which it turns out, didn't need fixing. But he did hook up my dvd, so I'm going to bed now and I'll watch "Nights in Rodanthe" to put me to sleep.
Getting my hair done tomorrow night for my Christmas party Saturday, so I'll work out after that for sure. The harder part of this diet will be snacking and no alcohol. I really want a beer or twelve when I'm stressed so I'll have to destress without it. Being able to go into my room and watch a dvd now will help I hope. And praying will help too.
I'm actually looking forward to weighing on Sunday now, just to see a week's loss. I probably won't weigh every week, but I will on the 13th for sure.
Off to take out the garbage, then Richard awaits!

First Weigh In - Not Good. Not Good at All

I finally weighed today. 212 lbs. I knew it was a big number, but I thought 205 at the most. Oh well, today I'm giving up food, drink and feelings that are holding me back.
After church I went to gym, but didn't have a great workout, because I forgot my water bottle. Getting off the machine to get a drink of H2O became tiresome. Came home, cleaned my bathroom and threw away mostly empty cremes, conditioners, bits of makeup I no longer use, etc. Sick of having everything pile up.
I prayed long and hard last week about needing help to lose weight. I CAN DO THIS!

Although I've tried before for a couple of days and thought, "Wow, I feel so much better!" I've always let something pull me back and continue on my downward spiral. No more. I have to lose weight for so many reasons:

1. I do not want to become diabetic.
2. I don't feel good.
3. Need to fit into my clothes since I have no money to buy new.
4. I will die early if I don't.
5. Robbie Smith posted on facebook "Does Caroline Storey need to lose weight?" Answer: I do.
6. I have so much to do around the house and I just don't have the energy at this weight.
7. It depresses me. I'm depressed. I'm depressed, I drink even more. I drink and eat more, I
gain more weight. Vicious cycle.
8. It's something I have to do. I have to rely on God right now and achieve weight loss.