What a difference a month makes

I had honestly thought I would never, ever love a man again.  I was in love once a long, long time ago, but things just didn't work out and not that I had given up, no one has ever come along that I have been able to love with my whole heart.  Just didn't happen.  Until this month. 

So much happened in June that made me realize how short life is and if one is going to be happy, NOW is the time.  A long time friend had a boating accident in the Keys and her two little boys were very badly injured, but after several weeks in trauma care and ICU, they're home and healing well.  A very close family friend passed away June 18, and my own granny passed away the next week.   It was just one thing after another, and then, just as quickly, I've fallen in love.  I don't want to waste anymore time.  I've always heard that you'll know when the right one comes along and now I know what that means.   

I did manage to lose 5 lbs since I weighed in at 216.  Still working out and trying to make better food choices. 

Love or something like it

Has a hold on me.  We'll see what happens, but I really believe I'm in real love.  We've known each other since we were ten years old and have always been friendly when we've come across each other....but in the few months since he's started coming to my church, I've come to know him in a different light.  And he makes me laugh.

At square two

I had a date last night!  With someone I've known forever and I really had a great time.  Laughed for two solid hours.  I knew I would and that's why I wanted to go out with him.  Laughter is the best medicine.  We're going out again Friday evening for sushi.!!!  While he's funny and keeps me laughing, he's also mellowed out so much over the last few years and he's not one of those guys that's into any game playing. 

Weighed in at 216 tonight.  The highest I've ever been and not one bit surprised.  What's it going to take? 
My mom had to work at the library tonight from 6-8 so I made a point of driving her so I could work out for the two hours she was there.  That's a start.   Now I have to curb my eating. 

I hate journaling food and I won't do it for more than a week probably, but here's what I ate today:

a ham sandwich around 11:30
lots of coffee
a bowl of cereal with skim milk at 4:00
a chicken sanwich with garlic mayo and pickles at 9:15 pm
Lots of Crystal light and water


Must make better choices tomorrow. 

On another blog tonight I read something that brought up so much for me. 
It's funny (not) how words can continue to hurt years and years later. 
When I was in my twenties I dated a guy (for way too freaking long) that thought I could maybe lose a few pounds.  What I did lose was him, THANK GOD, but it still hurts sometimes.