Back at Square One

I'm really disappointed in myself right now.  I am fatter than ever with absolutely zero motivation to do anything about it.   Looking at pictures of myself at a healthy weight and now does nothing to make me want to change.  I might think about it first thing in the morning, but later in the day I have no will power.  It's like I forget I'm fat. 

Right now I'm thinking I might start journaling, but that always gets to be a drag.  I need to really explore the reasons I eat crap, don't go to the gym, and say yes to Frosty's.

Reading an earlier post from December 2009 abouth the reasons I want to lose weight helped.  I was in a great frame of mind then and really motivated.  Number 5 makes me smile.  Robbie apologized later and he was so innocent, FB is crazy like that.   He was so sweet and he didn't think I was fat at all.  It was completely misunderstood.  I had forgotten that!