2.2 lbs loss!!!! 198.2

I'm so excited about that loss!  I was quite surprised as I've tried to watch what I eat and exericise everyday in some way, I really didn't 'try'.  I didn't track, didn't cook any WW meals, didn't stress, didn't drink a gallon of water everyday to flush everything out, didn't make myself nuts.  I've decided if I don't get below 180 lbs, I'm gonna be OK being me. 

All my life I've felt chunky and bad about myself in some way because I thought I was fat.  EVEN WHEN I WASN'T!  Once in my 20's, I went to a WW meeting (because I was dating an a$$) and I weighed in at 132, and I felt horrible about myself, which only caused stress that I couldn't deal with, so I ate, and ate.  I did lose a ton of weight (and sadly, muscle too) in my late 20's, but I should have never tried to lose it in the first place....  At this point in my life, I just want to fit in my clothes.  I have a man that loves me, I'm really enjoying my life,  and I'm getting to the point in my life that I just want to be healthy.  Not thin, just healthy in my mind and body.  Thinking about weight and what other people think of my weight is for the birds.  I just need to lose the anxiety my weight causes me.....  OMG, reading all this bull makes me want to puke.  I don't really know how I feel....   I just want to change patterns in my life that cause me to make the wrong choices regarding food and exercise.  And I'm really trying.

Tuesday Weigh In today

I feel I've lost a little, not much, but some.  I've walked six days this week, eaten pretty good, and have really tried to stay on track (just mentally - not great at writing down what I've eaten).  So we'll see.....

Changed my mind on December 11.... just way too soon, and honestly, I really can't be stressed out now planning a wedding.  I will continue making plans, but I think a spring or very early summer wedding would be easier to plan.  Neither of us really wants to wait, but we also are very busy people and I want to do the planning myself to keep costs down and other reasons.  I just want it to be especially special and not rushed...

Weighed in Tuesday and saw a 2.2 lb. loss!  I'm not really tracking what I eat, just mentally adding and hoping I fall within a few points of my 25 point total.  I've been walking almost everyday - I took off last Saturday, so that has helped too.  I've never been one to exercise for the enjoyment of it, but I can really tell a difference in the way I feel.  Much more energy, less stress, clothes fit better...all good things. 

Our WW leader quit and took a better job with benefits at a local grocer.  I really liked her even though I had only been to two meetings.  She had alot of useful tips and suggestions such as hungrygirl.com with lots of great recipes with points values.  Her recipes are mostly substitutions of low fat ingredients, but still really good.