Wednesday, September 8, 2010

2.2 lbs loss!!!! 198.2

I'm so excited about that loss!  I was quite surprised as I've tried to watch what I eat and exericise everyday in some way, I really didn't 'try'.  I didn't track, didn't cook any WW meals, didn't stress, didn't drink a gallon of water everyday to flush everything out, didn't make myself nuts.  I've decided if I don't get below 180 lbs, I'm gonna be OK being me. 

All my life I've felt chunky and bad about myself in some way because I thought I was fat.  EVEN WHEN I WASN'T!  Once in my 20's, I went to a WW meeting (because I was dating an a$$) and I weighed in at 132, and I felt horrible about myself, which only caused stress that I couldn't deal with, so I ate, and ate.  I did lose a ton of weight (and sadly, muscle too) in my late 20's, but I should have never tried to lose it in the first place....  At this point in my life, I just want to fit in my clothes.  I have a man that loves me, I'm really enjoying my life,  and I'm getting to the point in my life that I just want to be healthy.  Not thin, just healthy in my mind and body.  Thinking about weight and what other people think of my weight is for the birds.  I just need to lose the anxiety my weight causes me.....  OMG, reading all this bull makes me want to puke.  I don't really know how I feel....   I just want to change patterns in my life that cause me to make the wrong choices regarding food and exercise.  And I'm really trying.

2 comments:

  1. I have the same feelings about my weight. I just want to be happy about myself. Well done on your loss.

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  2. i am always excited to see new people comment on my blog welcome and where in Georgia are you?
    I so need to have a meeting with WW GAH... and to have a buddy close by would be so cool...

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